Tuesday, December 15, 2009

The Torment that is My Mind

Yesterday I wrote a post about what I want to do with 2010. After much trepidation I posted it. It was up for maybe a couple of hours and then in a fit of panic I pulled it. I still have it. I just can't figure out what to do with it. It basically outlines what I want to do for fun and profit in 2010. It goes out on a huge limb for me. It's not like I want to suddenly become a doctor or astronaut or a male stripper. I have the necessary skills. It's just out of my ordinary.

Now that I have written and posted this I will be getting encouragement from people, except D who will ridicule me, to post the original, but now everyone's expectations are heightened and that makes me nervous. (See what I mean by the title - my brain is tormenting me.) Or I won't get encouragement from anyone and then what? Or I will get encouragement but you won't really mean it and then what?

Now I just sound like a crazy person. Or more like a crazy person. Or maybe none of this comes as any surprise to anyone - that I am crazy. Enough! In the words of Homer Simpson, "Shut up brain or I'll poke you with a Q-tip."

What to do? What to do?

5 comments:

Charisa said...

Fear of failing is a terrible reason not to try. Why do you think I jumped ship and sent away for the pro card?

But that's just it - once you step outside the comfort zone it becomes less "uncomfortable" and you can reset "normal". It is VERY cool!

DO IT!!

Molly said...

Are you saying you don't have stripper skills? I hear a few beers to loosen you up helps with that...

Beth said...

I agree with Charisa! Stop thinking (thinking is such a terrible thing :) and just do it! (no, I have no affiliation with Nike). Whether you tell us (your readers) about it or not, go out on the limb!! (but we would like to hear so we can root you on as you take your next step)

Roo said...

Are you worried what we'll think or are you worried that if you tell people then you'll actually have to follow through with it? Just a thought....

t-odd said...

I posted the original. Let's see what happens.